mary jane
my job insists that i stay in a constant state of hatred and paranoia of the system. this week the head of community corrections, which is the highest type of probation in ks, has been head for 15yrs, runs the domestic violence classes, tad kitch, got arrested for criminal threat.
now everyone i work with was talking about it, bc we all know him and he is super mild, nice guy. and we all know that the county attorneys here over charge people and he probably just got in an argument with his wife and she got pissed, we see a lot of that with recanting and the whole bit. i dont know what happens in other peoples houses, but i would bet that whatever happened is something that has happened to all of us multiple times and someone just got mad or crazy enough to call the police.
but at the bar, it is a different story--everyone there (dive bar) hates the system in the same way i do and hates tad for running DV program, telling them how to live, being head probation--it shows how corrupt and stupid these people are (cops, prosecutors, prob officers) that keep trying to run their lives-- making the bullshit even smellier i guess.
on a much more personal level the bar i have been working at is owned by a couple and one i have a real yen to make out with and we did one night while her wife watched and of course she had to be a great kisser. i could have quit thinking about it, but we work together a lot, hang out some and there is constant touching on her part along with constant vibe. it makes me feel stupid to be in a crowded bar with people staring and to just be thinking about her leg being pressed against mine. the other day she leaned over to tell me something and her skin was so soft my face turned very hot and i have always known that my emotions are very obvious on my face and i dont want people to see this and know i am thinking about her tits, her naked, her pressed against me.
and then with my new part time gig as an alcoholic, i find myself tossed and all i can think about is that maybe trying to kiss her is a good idea right then and that stupid drunk me is going to make an ass of myself someday i fear.
ever have that problem?
now everyone i work with was talking about it, bc we all know him and he is super mild, nice guy. and we all know that the county attorneys here over charge people and he probably just got in an argument with his wife and she got pissed, we see a lot of that with recanting and the whole bit. i dont know what happens in other peoples houses, but i would bet that whatever happened is something that has happened to all of us multiple times and someone just got mad or crazy enough to call the police.
but at the bar, it is a different story--everyone there (dive bar) hates the system in the same way i do and hates tad for running DV program, telling them how to live, being head probation--it shows how corrupt and stupid these people are (cops, prosecutors, prob officers) that keep trying to run their lives-- making the bullshit even smellier i guess.
on a much more personal level the bar i have been working at is owned by a couple and one i have a real yen to make out with and we did one night while her wife watched and of course she had to be a great kisser. i could have quit thinking about it, but we work together a lot, hang out some and there is constant touching on her part along with constant vibe. it makes me feel stupid to be in a crowded bar with people staring and to just be thinking about her leg being pressed against mine. the other day she leaned over to tell me something and her skin was so soft my face turned very hot and i have always known that my emotions are very obvious on my face and i dont want people to see this and know i am thinking about her tits, her naked, her pressed against me.
and then with my new part time gig as an alcoholic, i find myself tossed and all i can think about is that maybe trying to kiss her is a good idea right then and that stupid drunk me is going to make an ass of myself someday i fear.
ever have that problem?
posted by anatole at 8:11 PM
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