coming out

watching a movie about coming out stories. made me think...do i even have one?
after i got kicked on campus i talked with the folks about being gay. the kicking was memorable partly because i understood those people too well that i had provoked them. the other reason was when i was on the ground and they were kicking me, the dad, mom with their 5 kids watching, and they started shouting faggot i was really confused. i thought you dummies, i'm not a faggot, i'm queer.and no one paid attention to them kicking me but when they started shouting faggot and group of students intervened. later all i thought was it they had shouted gay then no one would look but they had to use the f word.
so i thought, my parents won't push me down and kick me if i tell them. is that what i had been afraid of? my dad got physical but i dont remember him ever kicking me.
i made them go in the basement because there are less pictures of jesus there. they have this one upstairs that is "special" because its eyes follow you. creepy right.
and that was it. i said i am in a criminal case bc some crazies with an eight foot cross attacked me because i'm gay. we have never talked of it since.