Monday, April 10, 2006

is this real life: also entitled "is this what grownups do"

having a really bad night, have nothing to do at this time and really feel the need to reach out to someone who is an incredibly good person and who i know loves me.
had a date on friday this week and was very excited, been a long time and is probably good for me and my isolated self. should have stuck to the out reach from the bar job.
so it was grat and then got little drunk, trust me i know bc i am very experienced with the big drunk. anyhow, went home, great great. spent the whole weekend getting to know each other, fucking like rabbits, all the usual.
and tonight, sunday, things did not go as well. you would not like this bc you would probably like to think of me as a much better person than this.
so we go to the bar (rems) and it was great and then when it is time to go she turns scary and starts telling me how much she hates me. and it got worse. and worse and then she kicked my dog and became violent with me. now it was not physically scary, but i called crazy an she told me i deserved it. ok so finally after a bunch of stupid shit, which included me making it clear she would not get near my dog again, i got her to lay down and pass out.